Tranquil Dreamer

This sucks goat ass. And that's a harsh thing to say but I haven't been in THIS much pain in a long time...there's something very wrong with my jaw, and it's bulged out on the left a good 1/8 inch, it feels like. Doctors after several ER visits confirm severe TMJ, and I probably DO need to get surgery. Grind my jawbone down, perhaps, or remove some of the fluid sacks, or something, I dunno. But if I suddenly up and vanish, or am acting so downright stupid as to be annoying, I beg your forgivenesses. I'm either about to bash my skull in from pain, and am currently going between heating pads and ice packs and MORE PILLS, or else I've already TAKEN said pills.

Oh, did I mention I get narcotics for this? Vicodin, 5mg Hydrocodone and 500mg acetaminophen per pill, take 1-2 pills every 4-6 hours for pain, no more than 8 (!) pills in a single day.

It affects me hard, I'll say, and I've seen myself have trouble with it. But it's about the only thing that can take me from a literally screaming, swearing bundle of pain into a state where the feeling is minimalized, and I'm functional outside of the side effects of being a little bit drunk-esque.

Also! MANDY! You called me and I tried to call you back and every number I dialed came back saying "THIS CALL CANNOT BE COMPLETED" what the hell. I AM SO SORRY I MISSED YOU plz call back ;_;

Past that life goes on. Might could have a job possible iffy in a month or so.